Well, let's see...
The tests in Temple were interesting. They shocked me over 70 times, and they stuck needles in my arms and legs. They also made me stare at a little red dot on a TV screen. All these tests looked at my nervous system and the speed of my nerve reaction. The shocks and the needles hurt really bad. I never want to go through that again! Basically, we didn't come home with any answers. We talk to the neurologist tomorrow over the phone to talk about all the test results. So let's hope for the best!
I still am in a lot of pain, and unfortunately the medicine that I was sent home with makes me very nauseous and I can't stand that. The other pain medicine just makes me have weird and sometimes frightening dreams, so I can't take that at night. So basically, I'm stuck. The ride home was horrible and finally after a lot of crying, I finally got calmed down and drugged up enough to let me sleep for the rest of the three hours.
When we got home tonight, Scooby still wasn't feeling good. Well, sadly, we ended up putting him down. It was the hardest decision we've ever made. Not really the hardest, but you understand what I'm saying. We just couldn't watch him suffer any longer. So Scoob, buddy, I hope you are having a great time in doggie heaven eating lots of peanut butter sandwiches. You'll be missed! Love you bud!
This week wasn't ideal, and it was, I'll just say it, sucky.
The Lesson: Honestly, I'm not sure... I think I just really need to trust in Him and trust in His timing. It's extremely hard. And honestly, I'm mad at God. I'm upset and angry. But I know I need to trust Him. It's just hard. But with my parents and friends by my side, I really think I can make it.
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